‘I need help’
I couldn’t even write it, let alone say it out loud.
Make someone think I wasn’t good enough to figure something out myself?
It was the worst right after I moved to London.
I would literally say
‘YES, I can do it!’…
to any task thrown my way
And I would spend HOURS dying on the inside trying to make something work.
Ha, amount of times I locked myself in a disabled toilet at work just to sit on the floor for a few minutes trying to calm down…
But you know what?
I succeeded at most things I said YES to…
…but man, was I exhausted!
See, I now know it wasn’t about everyone else thinking I wasn’t good enough…
It was about me not believing I actually was ENOUGH just the way I was.
I didn’t believe I was good enough to live a fancy London life at the first place.
I wholeheartedly believed asking anyone for help would make my self image even weaker than it already was.
So I continued doing everything by myself…until the day when my manager told me:
‘Think about the impact you can make by asking for help and delegating to others’
And I tried it.
And it worked.
And I was moving faster than ever.
Somewhere along the way my self-acceptance started showing up.
And I started being proud of myself, too.
That’s when it became easier to start getting vulnerable
And that’s when I started asking for help in every aspect of my life.
• I didn’t know what I wanted, but I knew what I had wasn’t enough – I reached out to my coach and said I needed help.
• I knew I wanted my own business,but had no idea how to do it – I reached out and said I needed help.
• I didn’t have anyone to join me for a filming project – I reached out and said I needed help.
See, the best thing about it is that I no longer believe asking for help means I’m weak…
Because it gets me where I want to go faster than my solo performance – and that itself makes me stronger.
And people who are happy to help?
They’re the best kind of people!
And now I know I AM enough and London is pretty lucky to have me around… ?
And I no longer struggle asking for help when I need it.
How do you feel about asking for help?