I was in a way darker place four years ago.
And as you remember – the world wasn’t on lockdown back then.
I did not have cancer either.
I was able to do so much more than I can do now, too.
• I could hang out with friends
• Travel and see places
• Go to the gym
• Eat in restaurants
• And talk to my now ex boyfriend about who loves the other one more
I had the freedom to do SO much more than I’m able to do now.
But you know what?
I was so unhappy.
On paper it all looked perfect.
I had a life that ticked all the boxes in terms of things that are supposed to make us happy.
All of them.
I had it all, but it felt as if I had next to nothing.
Why am I thinking about it now?
Yesterday I talked to a friend who said he feels bad because he’s locked up in a huge house with his family and I’m all alone in a tiny apartment
It was all related to what we now hear:
‘We are all in this together, but we are not in the same boat’
And I agree, but I disagree at the same time.
When I look at what’s in my life right now, I realise I’m the happiest I’ve ever been.
• The people I call
• The job I’ve got
• The dog I video call with
• The mindset I’ve developed
• The way I look at myself in the mirror
There’s so much that’s changed across the years.
On paper, ‘my boat’ from a few years ago looked like a yacht.
But it was empty as hell.
My boat now may be small, but it is finally full of what matters to me the most.
And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
So when I look back, I’m so glad i had the courage to figure out what was important to me and what I wanted my life to look like
As opposed to what everyone else wanted me to have/ do/ be.
So now over to you:
If for a second you don’t compare your own situation to anyone else’s and just focus on you
When you look at what’s around you and ‘the boat’ you’re currently in…
Are you genuinely happy with what you’ve got in it?
If a part of it looks like it’s sinking or maybe it simply feels empty
Drop me a line.
If I managed to change things for the better, so can you.
In the end – we ARE in this together and dark places aren’t the ones we have to stay in. ?♂️ ✨